One of the biggest crises of humanity is who we are, and who we are supposed to be.
There is no time more confusing than being a teenager. You sit in that peculiar chasm, you're not yet an adult, nor are you a child. You haven't created your own life yet, but you've outgrown the one that your parents have provided you with. It's a challenge- you think that you have it all figured out, and then you crash.
We all have moments like this. I'm starting University in seven months, yet I have moments where I doubt whether I've applied for the right degree, at the right place, or even whether its the right time. There are moments when I feel academic and confident, and there are moments when I just want to defer and travel the world.
Your whole childhood you're forced to think about the future, and every little decision that you make from being as young as ten or eleven, you're taught define you as a person. Being a part of the 'iGeneration' is tougher than those who are older can realise. Through the growth of the media, there are constant points of comparison to remind you of the pressure. There are always those who are prettier, more intelligent and more successful. You compare all of these aspects to your life that hasn't really even begun yet, and you don't even know where to start.
All that I've ever known is that I want to leave my mark on the world. My dream career has continuously changed, I've wanted to be a nurse, vet, actor, singer, author, lawyer, journalist, even prime minister.  In fact, I would have been all of them at once if it was possible. Yet, all of these careers are merely symbols of who we think we should be, and not who we actually are. In reality, our sense of self is always changing and adapting, so its impossible to know 'who we should be' until we fall into it, unknowingly.
Even the 'escapist' aspect of the media can be just as detrimental to our sense of self. I've watched tv shows and films where I've begun to envy characters (or even the actors) for having wealth or success.  I know that it's unhealthy, but the unrealistic attributes of these worlds make them even more alluring. It comes down to the fact that nobody likes to advertise or discuss the tough stuff, and the media reflects this to create the most perfect world possible.
I guess, the moral is that it's normal to not feel complete, and I don't think that anybody ever honestly feels content with themselves. However, the key is to harness this desire, fuel it, manipulate it, and manifest it into something that you can be proud of. Nothing is ever permanent, and if you're not happy with your life, then change it.

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